Bad Timing

Have you ever run into someone at a certain point in your life that would be perfect for you...if they weren't already involved? It's frustrating when you both want it so bad, but know in your head it's not the right thing to do. I have a friend in that situation. It's certainly bad timing, but I can see where if both parties were single that it could be a wonderful thing.

It makes me wonder...is there only one person that you run into in your life who is what some term a "soul-mate"? I used to think there was that one special person you'd run across in your life and then you were out of luck if that didn't work out. I met the one girl I thought was my "soul-mate" (a term I'm hating more and more since it just logically doesn't make sense) when I was attending OCC. I would not have returned for the second semester if I hadn't met CLM. I was only with her for about a year with some time off a couple times in there. It just seemed like we were destined to be together with certain coincidences and other things that the relationship brought about. I was absolutely crushed and filled with guilt when it ended. There just seemed to be a connection that I can't explain. I wonder if I will ever experience that again in my life. At my age it does seem a bit hopeless, though.

I'm not sad about that, but a little wistful. It's not something I dwell on, but I do question it on occasion. The heart is a crazy thing and it does tend to get in the way of the brain. I would love to experience that specific rush of emotion again sometime in my life. Someday?